Nothing? Seriously?

So I talked with the lactation consultant today. I must say, she was rather sweet and praised me for all I've done, but she was completely, utterly and freaking annoyingly unhelpful. Apparently I've made it far enough that even prescription meds won't help increase my supply. She was impressed with all I've tried already, but basically told me that I should be happy that I've made it this far. The freakin' lactation nazi told me I've done all I can.

So I hold out as long as I can and hope that I can make it to my goal of a year. I just hope that my story can help convince some other women out there that no, breastfeeding is not "the easiest thing in the world." It's goddamned hard work, goddammit, and not only will it not necessarily come easy but if it doesn't, you're not only going to be worried about what's wrong with you, but you have another person to worry about nourishing as well. I can't tell you how many tears I've shed over this, how many "supplements" I've taken for this, how many hours I've spent pumping and getting next to nothing and worrying that I wasn't going to be able to do this anymore, but then feeling guilty about wanting to quit, because "BREAST IS BEST!"

And now I'm ranting. Dammit. I need a cookie. Anyone have a cookie? Preferably a really big one. With chocolate chips. Lots.